AK Patterson Releases Haunting New Single ‘I Don't Know How to Die’
Acclaimed London-based singer, songwriter and multi-instrumentalist AK Patterson announces her haunting new single I Don't Know How to Die, out everywhere via Power Baby Records.
Previously a four-piece, AK had just parted ways with her band members, and wrote the song as a mantra to tell herself to never give up. I Don't Know How to Die is a fight against the personal struggles AK Patterson has faced in recent years, including losing her voice after a nervous breakdown and choosing to split from her band of the past 5 years. This is such an amazing song, giving me goosebumps and the feels right from the start.
The rawness and vulnerability of the demo vocal resonated with her so much that it eventually became the final version and I am grateful for that because it's so powerful and mesmerising, guaranteed to give you the feels in no time. I am loving the raw emotion pouring from her vocal delivery and how melancholic and sad the song sounds, feelings that are enhanced by its ethereal production and haunting harmonies.
This gem was produced by Jasper Trim, who created much of the ethereal electronic sound world which was meant to feel like someone who had been banished to a watery purgatory, an image that came to fruition during a trip to New Zealand where the music video was shot. Patterson went travelling to help her recover from the loss of her voice after an 8 month burnout period last year.
Speaking of the track, AK says,
Although the title can be misleading, I want people to hear the hope within the song. It isn’t a song about death or dying, it’s a song about never giving up. I want people to listen to it who may feel dark or depressed or at the pit of the well, and remember that they do have the strength and courage to carry on. The song took on new meaning for me this year when I suddenly developed a health condition due to burnout that made singing extremely painful. I lost my voice for 8 months, and during this time I had to tell myself that even if I wanted to give up, I wouldn’t know how. This year I have faced so many challenges and the biggest one has been learning how to believe in myself again.